Ever since I was about 10 years old, I've had certain decisions about my life made up. I was always a very mature, opinionated child, and as such decided very young that I didn't care about getting married. Every other girl in my class seemed to put this in their life plan whilst I remained indifferent saying, and I quote, "I'm not going to be upset if I never get married." Perhaps wise words for someone so young. Maybe this was affected by the separation of my parents, maybe I was cynical from birth, who knows.
A few years later I decided I wouldn't have kids until I was older because I wanted a career first and foremost. Then that became, IF I have kids. And then that became, maybe I don't want kids and later, I don't want kids because I want my own life.
But something has changed lately and I think it has come from meeting the right person. He makes me want to be the bride, to be a wife and a mother, to have a family. If it never works out that way I won't be disappointed, but it's nice to want these things for the first time I can remember.
-A
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