Good afternoon my kittens,
I haven’t blogged in a few weeks now, but honestly I haven’t been sure what to say.
I guess the most important change in my life is that after years of hiding from it, self-diagnosing and being terrified, I finally went to speak to a doctor. I am not sure I have ever been more nervous, or given a bigger sigh of relief. I have to give a huge amount of love to Dad for how great he has been to me over Christmas. I definitely think we’re even closer now and I am incredibly lucky to have such an awesome Dad.
In regards to gossip, I have some for you. I suppose there is a boy in my life at the moment. Now he’s not a boyfriend – by my own choice – but he is definitely lovely. I’m very happy, and lucky, that someone is willing to put up with my company, and hopefully I won’t mess it all up somehow.
Now, if you read my last couple of blog posts, you’ll know that part of my New Year’s resolution is be more positive about myself. I think I am actually doing okay with this one. I am definitely more confident (for whatever reason) and I am definitely more comfortable with the way I look. I am still incredibly insecure, I still think I am terrifically ugly. I just think that a lot less than I used to. If that makes sense. Well it does to me.
Work is good, university is tough but good, and my money situation isn’t so bad anymore. Although I do need a new phone because mine is slowly but surely dying.
I’ll be more specific/salacious/scintillating/silly/sarcastic next time kittens, but for now I have lots of reading to do.
Love always,
-A
Monday 31 January 2011
Sunday 2 January 2011
Music blog
I have a music blog that I post on occasionally on Tumblr.
Mostly it's for posting anything that I write in regards to music reviews or recommendations. I'm hoping to keep this up this year and to get more of a variety of music on there. So far it seems to be mostly rock but that it's because I've been writing less and for some reason I find it easier to turn to rock music for a boost of music enthusiasm.
Anyways, it's called The Never Ending Playlist and you can find it HERE if you want to check it out.
-A
Mostly it's for posting anything that I write in regards to music reviews or recommendations. I'm hoping to keep this up this year and to get more of a variety of music on there. So far it seems to be mostly rock but that it's because I've been writing less and for some reason I find it easier to turn to rock music for a boost of music enthusiasm.
Anyways, it's called The Never Ending Playlist and you can find it HERE if you want to check it out.
-A
Saturday 1 January 2011
A fresh start...
This year, my resolution is simply to be better. To be a nicer, more understanding, less selfish, more focused, more in control and happier person. Obviously it is not an easy resolution to always keep, but the beauty of it is that if I mess up, tomorrow is always a new day to start again with it. It’s not like giving up smoking where if you have one cigarette then you’ve ruined the whole point of a New Year’s resolution. There is a lot I want to change and I hope that I can accomplish at least some of these things.
The very first thing I want to change: my attitude towards myself. It is so unhealthy to always hate yourself. I hate everything from my appearance to my personality at the moment, and I want that to stop. I don’t want to feel sick at the sight of myself, I want to feel wonderful no matter I look like. I know it’s a psychological change, not a physical one, that needs to happen with me and I’m going to try and crack down on my negative thinking.
It has also become blatantly obvious to me that staying away from boys seems to be the best move I could make for my romantic life. I am not ready to trust someone completely and I do not feel good enough about myself to feel secure in a relationship right now. Things will need to change before I could take that step with someone. Not that I am exactly inundated with offers these days… but I know what I mean.
I hope to write more and definitely update my music blog more often. I’m hoping I’ll be able to go to some shows, locally and maybe otherwise, to watch bands and write reviews about them. The lovely Letty told me that that is probably my best bet for getting into this whole music journalism thing and I am inclined to believe her. Also, I just love going to shows. Jen and Johnny (aka Wacky Jen and Patrick Swayze) both said they’d love to go to watch some local band shows at Moles every now and then, so hopefully I won’t have to go alone! Perhaps I could even attempt to send some to magazines/newspapers… but let’s not get ahead of ourselves yet.
I also need to start being smarter with my money. I know if I work for it, I can have enough money for rent, bills and food each month, as well a little thing for myself if I budget. It’s a matter of limitation but I am definitely already better at that. I’m much more respectful about money, or a lack of money, these days.
There are smaller things I would like to happen: getting my first tattoo, starting up driving lessons again, deleting Facebook perhaps, drawing more, taking a lot of lovely photographs and putting them up onto Flickr as a little portfolio thing, visit the clubs in Bath that I haven’t done yet... You know, smaller, less important things. They are still goals that I have for myself this year, but they’re not as major as the other changes.
Anyway, the point is that I want to make this year a million miles better than last year. I’m closing the door on 2010, and letting it stay firmly shut.
Happy New Year kittens, I hope you have a fabulous 2011 full of fun and frolicking and food and fierceness and far too many laughs to be healthy.
-A
The very first thing I want to change: my attitude towards myself. It is so unhealthy to always hate yourself. I hate everything from my appearance to my personality at the moment, and I want that to stop. I don’t want to feel sick at the sight of myself, I want to feel wonderful no matter I look like. I know it’s a psychological change, not a physical one, that needs to happen with me and I’m going to try and crack down on my negative thinking.
It has also become blatantly obvious to me that staying away from boys seems to be the best move I could make for my romantic life. I am not ready to trust someone completely and I do not feel good enough about myself to feel secure in a relationship right now. Things will need to change before I could take that step with someone. Not that I am exactly inundated with offers these days… but I know what I mean.
I hope to write more and definitely update my music blog more often. I’m hoping I’ll be able to go to some shows, locally and maybe otherwise, to watch bands and write reviews about them. The lovely Letty told me that that is probably my best bet for getting into this whole music journalism thing and I am inclined to believe her. Also, I just love going to shows. Jen and Johnny (aka Wacky Jen and Patrick Swayze) both said they’d love to go to watch some local band shows at Moles every now and then, so hopefully I won’t have to go alone! Perhaps I could even attempt to send some to magazines/newspapers… but let’s not get ahead of ourselves yet.
I also need to start being smarter with my money. I know if I work for it, I can have enough money for rent, bills and food each month, as well a little thing for myself if I budget. It’s a matter of limitation but I am definitely already better at that. I’m much more respectful about money, or a lack of money, these days.
There are smaller things I would like to happen: getting my first tattoo, starting up driving lessons again, deleting Facebook perhaps, drawing more, taking a lot of lovely photographs and putting them up onto Flickr as a little portfolio thing, visit the clubs in Bath that I haven’t done yet... You know, smaller, less important things. They are still goals that I have for myself this year, but they’re not as major as the other changes.
Anyway, the point is that I want to make this year a million miles better than last year. I’m closing the door on 2010, and letting it stay firmly shut.
Happy New Year kittens, I hope you have a fabulous 2011 full of fun and frolicking and food and fierceness and far too many laughs to be healthy.
-A
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